It's the little things. The little things in life that you rush through and don't take the time to think about how truly special they really are. I am constantly in a rush. Typically, one of the twins is always needing something; therefore, I don't ever get to just sit and enjoy the moment. Tonight, I did. My husband always helps put Olivia and Cole to bed. He puts one to sleep and I put the other to sleep. Usually, I am so ready to have "me time" that I rush through the bedtime routine. Tonight was different, tonight I felt a since of calmness surround me. Bryce was trying to find his birth certificate for his passport (we're going to the Dominican Republic in April!) and Olivia woke up. I was in the midst of writing this blog post (which was going to be on a completely different topic an hour ago). I picked her up and just rocked her. I didn't think she would actually fall asleep because she usually wants more formula, but she did. I sat there and rocked, just staring at sleeping beauty. I thought about how I need to slow down and enjoy the little things more often. Babies don't stay babies forever and I need to savor every minute of every day. Yes, it is true, I rarely have a minute to myself all day until both kids are asleep, but that in itself won't last forever. I need to realize I will never get these days back. Even if we have another baby, it won't be twins and it will be a completely different scenario. The doctor told us that twins are 1 in 70 births and it is a complete blessing that I want and need to take more time to enjoy. Yesterday, Olivia, Cole and I went to our friends house to meet her new baby girl. Olivia and Cole both started pitching fits and crying. My friend, Megan, took a video of it and all she could do was laugh. Laugh. That's what I need to do in those situations instead of stressing out because I was trying to make a peanut butter and jelly sandwich that should take one minute, but it took me twenty. The thing that I loved more than anything in this situation was that as soon as I picked both of them up and placed each of them on my lap, they stopped crying immediately. I loved that. I loved that they both just wanted me.
This was a pretty sappy blog post and I'm by no means a sappy person, but watching a baby sleep soundly in your arms does something to you. Their innocence maybe? I don't know, but what I do know is that I am going to start taking a breath and reminding myself that these moments won't last forever and to take it all in.